Yes, it really did affect me very much when I first found out about it. My imagination ran wild, my sleeps disturbed. I felt surreal.

But now, my heart is hardened.

I can't seem to grasp hold of my own feelings.

Am I refusing to believe that such a thing has befall me?

Am I refusing to believe that a man of principles (at least that's what I perceive) would do such a thing?

Anyhow,

I want to see each and every thing that comes my way as an opportunity.

An opportunity to bring Christ into my family.

An opportunity that my family will come together.

It's just weird how everything is going now.

The calm, composed, amiable, yet uncomfortable vibes enveloping my house

Why cant someone quarrel?? At least it's more normal.

Lord, I invite you into my household. May Your glory shine forth.